I did not realize how much my physical and emotional condition were reflected in my writing until recently. Writing had in some significant ways become a therapy, but because of my writing, I have been receiving queries and well wishes regarding my health through this blog, email and phone messages. When I look back and reread my entries, yes, I must admit, I did mention many times that I was not well because I actually fell sick repeatedly for the past four months or so. I certainly hope that I did not appear to be whining or complaining.
The issue of my health deals with some unexpected territory. I discovered a wider dimension of senses that I never thought possible. I have developed a kind of sensitivity to certain conditions or situations that has never affected me before and whenever I am exposed to these conditions I can sense an 'attack' and soon enough I will be sick physically and to a certain degree emotionally as well.
It may seems peculiar but I don't consider it as a privilege. I am not sure whether my explanation here help clear things up or it left more puzzles than before.
Anyway, I am writing this entry to express my appreciation and gratitude for all the care and concern shown.
To my die hard fans out there ( hehe..feels like a 'perasan' celebrity),
Thank you for your concern and your prayers.
Believe me, it has helped a lot.
Alhamdulillah, all praise be to Allah, I am on the way to full recovery insyaAllah. My health has improved tremendously and I feel like I am finally back to my normal self, which I haven't felt for quite sometime.
"And when I am ill, it is He who cures me"( As-Syu'araa':80)
And, only He deserve my deepest gratitude for always being there as I remembered calling to Him repeatedly, "You(alone) we worship, and You(alone) we ask for help( for each and everything)"
I hope I will never forget that:
Allah did not promise that the way would be easy. But He did promise that He would be with you in every single step of your life as long as you want Him to.